Mascara

Here's a trick I use to get the maximum length possible for my eyelashes! 

Step 1. Gently coat the tips of your eyelashes, making sure to not get them too thick! This just ensures that you will get the maximum length from your mascara! 

Step 2. At the base of your eyelashes gently wiggle the wand from side to side and slowly make your way to the tips again. 

Step 3. Use an eyelash comb to eliminate all clumps. 

Step 4. Use the eyelash want to separate and even out your eyelashes.

This works extremely well for me, and I hope it does for you! 

I'm going to try and get another tutorial up soon!

Graduate.

Four years ago seems so far away,

Out of reach but close enough to see.

Countless decisions made to haunt,

Growth and learning inevitable.

Questions bloom but sit quietly, 

Like tea forgotten on the coffee table. 

Strange to see the shift in power,

Great and awful minds released.

The real world often feels pretend,

I remember all the excitement.

The bets and stashes of paper,

Embellished with my dreams.

Funny how the world can change us,

A secret metamorphosis.

Much can happen between,

Nine and thirteen.   

Well.

I was going to start a post demonstrating how to make bruschetta pasta, and a strawberry short cake... But work just called and I have to go in at seven tomorrow, so perhaps I'll do that another night. A product review should be coming soon, seeing as I will be acquiring a paycheck soon! Any products you want to see reviewed? Let me know :)

Well, it's off to bed. G'night!

Knowledge

It's tinted and claimed forbidden,

Hidden by a book shelf in the backroom.

Neither lost or ever really forgotten,

Just hidden behind a bookshelf;

In the back room. 

Years spent constructing the vault,

Camouflaged and concealed forever.

Visited frequently when completely alone,

As to not give away the direct location,

Marvelously hidden behind a shelf of books.

In the back room,

Lit dully with not a single window;

A plethora of information hidden.

Only for one to know the truth,

Of what lies behind the shelf of books.  

Thought.

Sometimes I think I might be thinking too much,

And then realize that the thought cements the deal.

Put on my thinking cap and try to devise a plan,

To perfect a way to quiet down my busy brain. 

Skull aches and I realize I've gotten nowhere,

Caught up in another angry ocean of ideas. 

It gets a little hectic to ponder all the time,

And exhausting to scrutinize and evaluate.

Sort of a safety net to keep me from falling,

Too deep into a void where I can't focus.

I think the ocean is really agitated tonight,

Memories are illuminated like lightning. 

I could just be over playing the nostalgia,

Mother says I'm dramatic and I agree.

At least she can't say my mind is lazy,

Her and I are very much the same. 

There must be thousands of people like me,

Given a mind that resembles the sea.

Diary of a crazed man-lady.

    I've quickly approached the need to vent, without actually including what I need to vent about... How does one do this?... There comes a point where a repetition of things becomes almost unbearable, yet you know that they are going to continue, and due to the situation you understand that they are unavoidable. Scratch that, I don't understand why they are not avoidable. This constant fight is best depicted as a pile of building blocks, each representing a different argument. These blocks are pretty swiftly piled upon each other until the tower starts to rock back and forth, at this point one would fear that the tower would collapse, so they would either stop piling altogether, or spend time making sure that the structure is secure... This structure is not secure, and more blocks are being placed on top and at any moment it could all just tumble back down to the ground, as it has before. I, myself would enjoy avoiding the happening of this because for the most part, I'm sort of in an okay place in my life. I'd fancy to continue forward, backtracking and over reflecting is something I'd really like to leave in the past.

   I'm sure some sleep will help wash some of this away, I just really needed to type away and vent a bit. It's healthy, I guess.

Soul Mate

Been writing like crazy lately, so I decided to share some new work. 

No threat of danger leaves me stagnant,

Wisdom brings the soul to boredom.

Sparks burn out prior to transforming,

I need a fire to burn through my body.

Ashes like angel dust to excite and destroy,

What is life without fear of threat.

I need a dance partner ready for the dark,

Someone who doesn't need direction.

A free soul flowing through the rapids,

Never trapped in fear or tainted by regret.

An exact opposite mind set of my own,

Ready to jump without even glancing.

Where he goes I might just follow,

Toss myself before him for shock value.

Risk everything because I'll have to,

Watch the fear evaporate to nothing.

Walk through an isle of burning coals,

To allow my soul its proper growth.

I need a man.

Hope sometimes nestles itself within my thinking,

And I wonder if soon someone will come to save me.

It's been a while since I've felt one hundred percent,

Probably because fifty percent is living in someone else.

To be alone is a curse disguised as some kind of blessing,

A lonesome mattress just as desperate as I am.

These thought bubbles interrupt my sleeping,

Last night I dreamed of washing dishes.

Somehow that transformed into a bunch of crabs,

Falling from a rack above into the dish water.

I woke up and thought to myself in a quiet voice,

What the fuck was that all about.

Had I an occupant beside me on this mattress,

I could have had a great discussion.

Or he would of disregarded me completely,

Telling me to shut up and go back to sleep.

That's where the curse comes crashing in,

An indecisive fantasy born from insecurity.

I really hope I don't dream of crabs tonight,

Perhaps I could dream of a nice tropical place.

Yet, they would absolutely have crabs there,

So maybe I could dream of a really nice date.

A bottle of wine at home with some Chinese,

No seafood, just some much needed cuddling.  

Push.

    I realized that often when certain people spoke to me I disregarded it because I was sure that I knew more, or better than they did... Although my little brother proved me quite wrong. (Which I hate admitting). I was discussing certain jobs and why I didn't want to work them and Jake stopped me and asked me what I wanted to work for. He used his newly bought truck for an example, saying that when he felt like quitting or sleeping in, he would just think of his truck payment and that would offer enough push to keep him going. I sat there with him, and thought for a few minutes and couldn't think of one thing that I wanted to work for. I knew the cat food was getting pretty low so I'd have to get more, but besides the kitty I couldn't think of a single thing, probably due to the fact that I got so used to not being able to get my own stuff. I was at work Monday and everything was piling up and I was getting ahead of myself, and I just breathed and thought of three things that I wanted to save up for... It worked! I got through the day proud of myself for actually following through with something. The lesson I learned was to start listening more. Even if you are certain that you are king or queen of all knowledge there's always room for more. Worse of all, sometimes your younger siblings can be right.

The job is mine!

I have orientation tomorrow! Although it isn't the position I was hoping for, the manager said I can work my way up to it. I'm excited to have an income again, even if for right now it's only part time. I'm sure I can get full time pretty fast.

Cross your fingers!

I have a job interview tomorrow! I'm so excited, I hope I get this. It will improve every aspect of my life, and I'm in dire need of improvement. With this job will also come some fun stuff for you guys! Like more product reviews, tutorials, and recipes!

Cross them fingers for me, guys! I'm so nervous for tomorrow.

Summer makeup.

I can already tell that this summer is going to be scalding, which means I can kiss my normal foundation routine goodbye (for the day at least). I suppose it will be nice because I have been wanting to focus on more simple and natural looks.

If you have pretty decent skin, let it be naked for the warm months. just make sure you have some sort of sun protection. If you are uncomfortable going out without makeup on here is my favorite and most used way to defeat the heat and look gorgeous.

The first step is to wash your face really well, following with a decent layer of moisturizer. Blot the excess moisture from your face with a paper towel, and then buff in a very thin layer of your favorite foundation. Gently blot the excess foundation from your face (The less product on your face the longer it will last). Use a concealer and place a dot over all the blemishes you want to get rid of, blend the concealer into the foundation using your finger. Go in with a finishing powder, and really press the product into your skin. This will lock everything together. Pat your face with a paper towel to remove the left over powder, and from there do your face however you see fit for the day. :)